The Pragmatic Perspective

On this day, I must ponder the experience of motherhood. I won't be able to say it is everything I ever dreamed it would be. Neither can I say it's the bane of my existence. Somewhere between the two. I have moments when I think I shall be the source of Zoe's demise; and times when I can see the wonder that is my own child. It's a fragile dance between my impression upon her;and her expression of self. I find affirmation of my positive influence on her from many good people. My self-doubt endures regardless. When has a good mother ever known she was? Doesn't a bad mother often know it? And so on until my earthly end....I'm trying.......

Stop and think a minute. Really. Why are you doing what you are doing at this moment? If you're working- could be that you need money for rent and food. Sitting-because you are tired, maybe lazy. Searching online- for a good deal or a little hope or motivation. It's just that we often live unconsciously. Why are you working at your job? Why do I stay here and cook and clean and entertain my child all day? Perhaps you work for a better life; to touch people's lives while doing so. I stay so that I can pass on what I value most- honesty, love, goodness, strength. So before you drink your coffee, think about "why" you drink it. Before you hoist those 30 lb. dumbells, consider the reason. If you plan to hug your dog; remember those hairy, stinky beasts don't live forever. Try to do more things for reasons you have actively considered. Know your why. I'm always looking for mine.